Thankfulness

(it supposed to be published exactly a month ago.. but oh well, here it is... )

yo!

it's actually something that i wanna write couple days after my BIG day,, but i dunno,, can't find the right words yet,, or maybe the place that inspire me a lot to write is in my kost.. since i spent most of my 'deep-feelings-time' there,, and since i just came back to this 'back-to-reality' city,, so i write it just now. wohohoo.. i think i'm much more productive in creating something--aanything-- in this place.. haha,, feels like now i'm belong here (when it comes to must-face-reality) hehehe..

enuff babbling!

well,, as you can see in this big big smile...

i survived!!

all the things that bothered me these days have finally over...

wanna know how it feels?

sweet, as i said before..
it even tastes much much more sweeter than what i thought..
i can't believe i've been through it all..
i'm so thankful to Allah, and i never feel like i thank enough to all of this gift.
haven't satisfied being thankful yet,, cos it all feels like miracle! i'm lucky, i'm gifted, and i'm blessed.

lucky,, cos this is something that everybody would say it's almost impossible! i had this tumor for all my life, and it was being recognized 3 months ago! it was quickly handled by my father and of course the professional doctors so it could be taken care by a 'God-handed' doctor from Japan, prof. Nakamura.. he did a perfect job in a perfect timing and situation. how can i not be thankful? =)

gifted,, cos i feel the love of people around me. my precious parents,, who fought this with all of their body and mind.. their prayer, mind, feelings, money, all wasted with no doubt in the name of love, deep inside from their heart, for me... dear inyok and babe, i love you... =) my beloved bestfriends,, who helped me a lot when i was facing and getting through all of this,, they cheer me up, encourage me, pray with me, whatever a friend can do they could do too.. the wonderful doctors,, i believe they did the best that they could do even it wasted their time, power and money.. my big family,, either sister, grandma, uncles, aunties, cousins etc, for all their support and prayer that indirectly but surely lead my way of succesfully through this.. and i knew i'm so thankful, cos now i know how does it feel being loved unselfishly, never expect any changes, and fully from the bottom of the heart.

blessed,, bcos i could face this 'test' with a big smile in my face, i was calm, tawakkal, and ready for almost everything at that time.. i feel no pain, no scared, and everything that i expected definitely come true. i even left the hospital with so so much thankful feelings in my heart, and it does taste sweet. reeally really sweet.

me and the main part of the saviors

me and prof. Nakamura

(me and the smile of me-JUST-got-out-from-the-ICU-room! hahha.. never have smiled that BIG!)

and since it exactly a month passed, and i feel completely healthy, happy, still thankful, hopeful and continuing my life with a big passion in my heart. hope everything goes perfectly fine every now and then, and i should never be tired to be thankful to my lord for all my life... ;)