29 October 2008

life is a mystery . . .

have you ever met a stranger that feels like he is your long-time-ago bestfriend?
that you are comfortable to talking to, laughing with, even could share some of your feelings..

have you ever met a stranger that you don't usually can talk about many things with someone new,
but with him u feel so free and just be you?


have you ever met a stranger that have a lot of things in common with you?

i mean, soo so mucch in common that makes you wonder 'how does it possible?'

well, yes i have.
it's actually months ago,, for exact on June 2008.
it's suddenly crossed on my mind again.. =)

here is how it happened..
at the end of June, on Friday, i had to go back to Jakarta -the place where i belong- because of this soo much pressure in my study, and i needed to attend mbak Nadia's wedding..
well, the main reason was actually: i'm so fed up with my study, and i almost gave up, and all i needed was only to come back home.
yes. my loving home. in Jakarta. even it was only for three days. three amazing days to come back to my loving family. to refresh my mind. to heal and make up all the depressed feelings.
what exactly complete my 'homecoming for healing' is actually when i was going back to this city, back to the reality, on Sunday afternoon, at this Sukarno Hatta airport..

when i arrived in this A6 waiting room, it didn't usually this veryy crowded.
in the middle of so many people looked for seats, i found one seat. straightly found it.
without any doubt, i went ahead and have a seat.
i wondered why there's one empty seat with so many people looking for a seat..
well, yea whatever.

then this guy who seated next to me started talking to me.

he and i had a long chat and we found so much things in common!
we even went back to Jakarta on same day, same hour, and for exactly same reason..
we were so damn fed up with our routine that we needed to come back home to refresh our mind..
so far i talked to him, i was totally being me.

i mean,, i never meet a lot of strangers out there,, but for a stranger, i know he's so comforting to talk with,,
he said he notice me bcos i looked like a friend of him,, that was bcos i was wearing my glasses! which i have never ever wear those damn glasses anywhere but my house, which i never left home without my softlens, which i wore it confidently outside the house for the first time only bcos i just want.

maybe if i didn't wear those damn glasses he'd never talk to me..

we had this chit chat for about 2 hours. and i never felt 2 hours was that short. i had a great time waiting.. xp
we also walked into the plane together.
and i thought it could get scarier only if we sat together again on the plane.

duh, it happened..
well, it's actually not really that together but our seat was on the same row.
mine was 30A, and his was 30D.
yeah, scary. whatever. what a coincidence.
then on the plane, i didn't talk to him at all. i was just enjoying my flight...
.

.

.
when our plane just landed, i still didn't talk to him.
then he and i walked out the plane one on one.
but hey, inside the airport, when all passengers were walking into the exit, he looked back, saw me, and he stopped.

yes, he stopped to wait for me.

i was just smile and wave my hand a little.
then we walked together again into the exit.
unfortunately, he carried a baggage, and i didn't.
it was almost 10 p.m and i had to get to my kost by taxi, all alone.
so i needed to left there as soon as possible.

that's the time when i had to say goodbye to Mr. Stranger...

humm..
i wish i could see him again..
when will i see your face again, Mr. Stranger?
hehe..

i don't know if it's like a picture of my Mr. right someday,,

i don't know if it's only a gift from my lord for me to not to feel alone in the middle of my trip goin' back to where-i-don't-belong..

but one thing for sure, i'm glad bcos after that night, i feel completely heal. maybe it's just nice to talk to someone that you barely know, but accepts you for who you are, and it's comforting, and fun too, cos u never experienced it before. it increased my self esteem, which i lost before..


well,
life is a mystery.
yeah folks, it really is.


i actually not really hope that someday we'll meet again and we clearly remember each other, *well bcos actually i hardly remember him either! haha*

sounds like a fairysuckstale..

but it would be nice if it does happen, eh?

maybe i could break the mystery.. =)

25 October 2008

my FUN holidae..

we are crazy about swan lake..
on 17th oct we went to swan lake not so far from our campus,, the four of us girls with sista and danang..

on 19th oct we went to swan lake after we watched Laskar Pelangi.. four of us girls with sista and razak..
whole day(s) we spent together with soo so much fun!! xD













15 October 2008

Very first damn words

Hey hey heyy..
the idea of makin a nu personal blog was showed up on :
13.10.2008
19:52


in the middle of studying for the next day microbiology quiz.. kinda bored that nite.. hehe ;D

Well, i don't know if it's kinda late to start a blog just today,, but i think i need a place, a room, a blank, -whatever you call it -to pour all my thoughts- freaky thoughts, geeky thoughts, all good and bad feelings whatever -it's up to me, eh? x)
Yeah and there will be some 'ngasal' grammar when i feel like 'curhat' in english,, cuz i just loove doing it so much. i only write words and sentences which i think it suits. i don't care about my grammar! hehhe.. there might be a lotta fuckin' rude words too! cuz i could be so rude when it comes to pouring my thought into something.

Actually i already start a blog in friendster since i was in highschool. but i do need some more place where there's not really much people know it. i don't care for whoever read this blog. i don't care what they think about me. it's just me. well, at least i'm trying to being me. maybe this blog could sorta be my 'jeritan hati' hahahahaha.. xD

I think since now on, i have to write whatever happen to my life, whatever happen to my thoughts, so someday i could review it and put a little smile on my own thoughts.

Well, here it is,, blog of mandhytaa, as known as _slurrppmiao_ in this blog, who is just a lady with a lot of things in her mind, who's tired lookin' for love and might even don't believe in that little thing called love, who has so many friends and not so many bestfriend *bestfriends are precious. then i won't have best as much i have friends, 'aite?* and always lookin forward to meet new people with all the different characters and minds, who could be my friend, bestie or might be enemy.
haha.. but i heart peace, i'm not such a bitch who's always lookin for catfight or something. i'm no drama queen cuz this life is hard without we even try to make it harder. i'm just a lady who always try to be the best of her. who has insecurities, rudeness, goofiness, bad side, angel side, yea whatever et ceteraa.

Now i'm studying in FKG u**** 3rd semester in a city which i wasn't born here, have no families here -all my lovelies are in Jakarta- so i'm practically 'anak kos' in this strange strange city. i might be have problems with socializing cuz i tend to be more introvert. i love makin' friends but i think i have a lil' problem on how to makin' it.

There are a lotta things i don't know yet in this world. i wanna read so much books but i don't have as much passion. i wanna widen my random knowledge but i don't have much time to do it. maybe it's about how you manage your time. i don't know, maybe i'm not smart enough just yet.

I really wanna be a great dentist and i always been SUPER JEALOUS to whoever have their own dental clinic. damn. i envy all those succesful dentist with all the following fabulous title between their name.
I wanna help all of them who have problems with their teeth and oral. i wanna be super cool dentist someday. and i want my own dental clinic. i promise i should have one!! yeahh even i still do sks (sistem kebut semalam) learning before tests and quizzes sometimes and really have this laziness when it comes to paperwork.. hehe,, but i promise i definitely have to be better and better! x)
I use to have all this firey firey passion to be what i wanna be and i will always have this passion for all my life!

And i have a faith in Allah SWT for sure. but i'm not really that much religious. i just believe if i want what's best for my life i really can't be tired to ask Allah and do what is not 'menyimpang' from my religion. so i gotta keep believin', hope and never deny on my faith. cuz i know for sure, in the hand of the Great Allah SWT, all of this, is worth. and someday i will get what is worth for my sacrifices all this time.

I always lookin for new experience, meeting new people, new things cuz i could get sick of this ordinary life. i always lookin for my courageness too. it's hard to be brave and stands out you know.. not every person can get out of the box. and i actually wanna be one. and i still have to find out how to dare to be different. in a good way of course!
I'm dying to have some more spare time. cuz there's a lotta things i wanna do but with all this busy work and activities, i have no chance. and i would looove to kill my bad habit: laziness. sometimes i prefer sleeping than doing useful work. beside sleeping i could watch too much dvds, reading too much magazines, whatever it takes to kill time and do nothing useful for me. it's too much waste of time. i get tired easily. damnn. i used to have so much energy i couldn't even sleep till 3 AM. but now, i could stay up until 3AM only for dvds. which is total waste of time! no no no no! i GOTTA STOP IT! get ur ass real high anywhere but your bed! damn.

every 1 minute you waste is precious 60 seconds that you could never repeat.


that's a lot of number! ;)

So i should prooooomisseee to be more careful to manage my time. promise dhytt! x9